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| Chevrolet : Nova 1966 Chevy II
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| Chevrolet : Nova 1966 Chevy II
$10,000.00 (1 Bids) Time Left: 1d 9h 26m |
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What can I do to help the quality of life? Question: I was recently a victim of violence in an all black community in Greenwood, Mississippi. Two older males, I was 20 at the time, they appeared 25-30, tried to sell me drugs and when I said no, they pulled a gun on me and forced me into their vehicle. They drove me into the ghetto and beat the living shit out of me. Half my lip was hanging from my face and two teeth had been beaten in. Its been a few months now. I'm physically okay other then missing two teeth, however I still seem to let the event get me down. I have suffered from depression and ADHD all in the past and had gotten minimal help with it. My grandparents were supportive of me using ADDERAL and anti-depressants, but when I moved back in with my dad he either couldn't or wouldn't afford them. He told me he though ADDERAL was nothing but another recreational drug. Anyway to get over with what I'm saying, I'm smart, I have a lot of potential, but at this point in life I feel stuck and unable to move even though I literally get yelled at every day by my father to get out of his house and make something of my life. I would have a job if I hadn't totaled my car in the north georgia snow storm we recently had, and dad expects me to get a job that I can walk to, he travels a lot for a living. I just don't know what to do now. I stopped smoking as much weed as I used to but still, I just don't have any strive for a future, especially while I'm here. It's like my mentality still expects him to take care of me due to the piss poor effort he hardly even made when I was a kid, throwing me to his grandparents for care, then not getting me help when most needed. Plus on top of that my step mom beat the shit out of me as a kid, and she got away with it. I would be in school right now but dad, working for himself, never paid his taxes, which info on that is needed for me to be proven a resident under a state institution. In other words, I was accepted but considered out of state somehow. I hate making excuses as to why I'm a "piece of shit" but I know I don't want this. Why am I so stuck in one spot even though I utterly hate it here? Why is it so hard for me to get out of my dads home when it was easy for him when he was a kid, he left at age 17 to peruse music and drugs, but ended up knocking my mom up with me. Is rehab recommended for me? I have a mild weed problem and I drink once a week. Do I just need to man up, take the un needed bullshit and live life unhappy with a shitty job? Do I walk away and hope that I can find something on the streets? Do I go live with my grandparents again yet have no social life? Do I off myself? (obviously not, I already attempted and went to a clinic for a few days because of it. Apparently my dad "knew" i wouldn't do it and was just wanting attention, obviously. Fucking jackass!) Its obvious I know what to do, get away, live life, man up.... but I feel so incomplete, abused, roughed up and thrown away. What can I do to help the quality of life? Answer: Earn lot of good-will. |
